The worst thing people can ask you after you end a relationship is “are you okay”. Obviously, they are expecting you to say no and begin planning their next lines about how you’re an awesome girl who deserves so much better. As much as that is lovely to hear, it doesn’t mend a single, broken piece inside of you. Being attached is the worst thing. You put your heart out of arms reach and watch as it sinks into a pool of emotions and concern. The hardest part is when you can’t grasp it when you know the tides are going to sweep it away. You hate to be that girl that put too much emotion into relationships but you can’t change that quality about yourself. Its not your fault that you finally felt comfortable in the arms of another, that you let them see a part of your soul you told yourself to never show. Its not your fault. Its not your fault that life spins so fast and you lose yourself in the madness. To lose yourself in someone is a part of growing up. It allows you to mature and blossom even though the pain of being the person who was left is overwhelming. Just look at all the lessons you have learnt. No longer will you allow yourself to be hurt and no longer will you let anyone possess your heart. No longer will you be stuck with someone who damps your life and drags you down from reaching your potential. No longer will you be that girl who believe that her relationship was perfect. Now, you are the girl that won’t let anyone in because you have been broken so many times that even attempting to put the pieces back together will cut deeper than any knife. Now you are damaged. That girl that puts on a smile for everyone to see, even though you just want to cry. The damaged and broken. A incredible collection of girls who used to have hearts. This is why it is impossible to hear the words “are you okay”, because we don’t have hearts anymore. We are numb to existance.
Obviously, I’m not okay you fuck .